With it being the weekend, as usual I got teased even more than usual this morning....and after a LOT of begging I was even allowed release, although again no sex, only a very slow very drawn out handjob. It's now been some weeks since I was allowed to cum during sex....but of course that doesn't mean my gf hasn't lol
So this morning was much the same as usual. A lot of teasing, caressing and laughing as I became more and more desperate....and very little stroking, at least for the first 30 minutes.
Me: Are you going to let me cum today?
Gf: No, you're going to suffer some more
Me: When you say more do you mean for the next 30 minutes or so and then I get to cum?
I tried to say it in a half joke, although I was 100% serious with my intention of wanting to cum. She had teased me for 30 minutes with very little stroking and no edge whatsover. I was desperate.
Gf: No, I mean I'm gonna tease you for days until just touching your cock is gonna make you cum.
She laughed.
Again I was shocked, I really don't know how she comes out with such great lines that make me even more desperate.
She started stroking me slowly but firmly and got me to the edge very quickly. There's something about knowing I'm being controlled that gets me so excited I edge within 20 seconds.
She stopped and started squeezing my balls and I began to make noises of desperation. At this she stopped and started slapping them, very lightly but enough to make me flinch.
Gf: I know you like this..
She started stroking me again and got me to the edge. This was repeated again and again, I lost count of how many times but I was genuinely desperate to cum and can honestly say I didn't want to be kept in denial another minute. I began begging but my requests for sex were met with the following response:
Gf: No sex today, you are going to lie there. Don't move and don't make a sound
Amazingly she took pity on me and stroked slowly, this time she didn't stop and I came. I was amazed as it's only been 5 days since I last came from a handjob.....but I'm not complaining, completely the opposite in fact :)
As for the 16 weeks, it's been mentioned I will continue my exercise training for the entire course...but I don't think it means denial for the entire time. Personally I think there will be breaks in the game where I don't have to wear the CB etc although when that might start is anyones guess....well actually when my gf tells me. This way it keeps everything exciting and new and it's always nice to have some 'normal' time now and again.
The dynamic of denial definitely changes for me. The first 7 days are tough as i wanna cum but love being kept in denial. The next 7 are harder as I wanna cum even more and although I love being controlled the part of me that wants to cum definitely starts to surface more. It's an interesting experience, as I feel I'm in a win-win situation, if I'm kept in denial it just gets better, but if I'm allowed to cum well that in itself is amazing after being teased for so long. I don't know how guys cope with months of denial, maybe one day I'll be posting it as one of my experiences, for now I'm enjoying every minute of my relationship with my gf. Again, she mentioned it the other day.
Gf: Just think, all this has happened because we saw some guy on the beach who may or may not have been wearing a CB.
I wonder if I'll be told to wear my CB to the beach next summer? The thing is we always go to the nudist beach....and i know my gf would find it absolutely hilarious to see me humiliated in front of everyone there. The other day we were sat opposite each other on the tube. She leant forward, made a fist and tapped my metal CB so that it made a noise. She started laughing at the look of shock on my face as the two people sat on the other side of the train looked at me with a curious expression on their faces. I just sat there and was so content about my whole situation that I was almost pleased to feel so embarrassed :)
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My new CB has been posted now, it should be here in about a week. I'm looking forward to it arriving :) One thing I didn't mention was that after cumming today, showering and making breakfast I 'forgot' to bring out the CB to put on. Shortly after my gf grabbed my crotch and squeezed (expecting the CB to be on I think). It wasn't though.
Gf: Who gave you permission not to wear the CB? Go and put it on.
She gave me a little 'you know who's in control' smile.
I know I should expect this reaction by now, but it's still surprising me how good she is at all this. I really really thought today would be back to normal and the end of the game for a while. The last time she let me cum the CB went straight back on and today it's the same again. 2 weeks of wearing it now, I haven't been able to stroke my cock at all and it's 6 months since I made myself cum.
Two things that are without a doubt clear, my days of masturbation to make myself cum are well and truly over and the question of 'if and when' I get out of this CB is completely at my gf's discretion.
Happy days.....I think lol.
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My new CB has arrived! :) It's the Braveheart from Steelworxx (it's my profile pic)
I'm looking forward to some longer term wear ....although I'm not sure why lol...perhaps I'll live to regret buying it. My gf wanted the option to be able to keep me locked up for days at a time without having to be released for hygiene reasons so what could I do, I had to buy it.
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It looks like I may be in for another treat soon. My gf and me have been talking about my T&D fetish and other things I like and that she likes. As she's regularly slapping my balls, either gently just to make herself laugh or actually hard enough to make it hurt I'm sure she figured out long ago that I also enjoy S&M.
So, she's told me things she likes (regular things where I am in control) which we'll do when we're not playing the T&D game. This is good for me as it gives us a break and keeps everything 'new' so to speak and good for her as we also do other things she enjoys. However, last night things took a very interesting twist, and again I was more than a little shocked. So...we'd been talking about S&M and I commented on what a natural my gf was...she looked surprised at the compliment.
Gf: Do you really think so?
Me: It's a little scary how good you are. Do you know how much people sometimes pay for this kind of thing? I've seen adverts for 250 euros per hour.
She laughed at this, but was also very interested and began looking on the internet. I decided not to push the situation and continued playing my xbox while she looked. After a while..
Gf: Did you know there are courses on how to be a dominatrix? That could be interesting..
At this point my interest in my new xbox game practically vanished!
Me: Really? If there's a place local we could go have a look.
Gf: And a dom has written a book about her experiences here in Barcelona, it's called Confesiones de una domina.
At this point I was having a hard time believing what I was hearing. This was all just to good to be true.
Me: I'll get it if you like?
Gf: Ok.
I could tell she was very intrigued but I left her alone to continue looking. I'm learning that not applying any pressure is a good thing.
So, today...I've ordered the book and by chance while reading a review found a BDSM club that amazingly is about 3 minutes walk from our flat :) I told my gf and again she was really interested, she started looking at the webpage..
Gf: Theres a BDSM market being held there soon. We should go, maybe we can get some new toys. And look, they've got a room you can hire out with all the equipment to use, it's 60 euros for an hour.
She laughed. I'm sure I don't need to tell you what my response to all this was :)
Gf: And there's another place in Barcelona called the Fetish Cafe, we could try there one day as well.
At this point I was starting to wonder if someone had put ecstasy in the cup of tea I was drinking.
I started massaging her feet, which she liked.
Gf: Clean them for me first, go get the towel.
She smiled.
If I had had a ring I think I would have proposed there and then..
I got one, came back cleaned her feet and started to massage them. This turned into a proper massage and after about half an hour my gf was perfectly relaxed and asleep. I was strangely content just to have been able to give her a massage, no teasing, no CB, nothing at all like that.
She woke up after about an hour and got ready to go out, but before she left she turned to me and said.
Gf: You know we still haven't tried out your new toy.
We bought one of those anal vibrator toys designed for prostate milking a couple of weeks ago.
Gf: I hope you've had some practice getting used to it it because I want to use it on you soon.
Now at this point I was feeling slightly delirious and as she was speaking Spanish I think she said I would be handcuffed while she fucked me with it, but I can't be 100% sure....although I'm hoping I'll find out tonight! :)
So, to conclude, she could potentially do a dominatrix course, we're gonna visit a BDSM club in a couple of weeks and tomorrow....well I could be kinda walking funny
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I live in Barcelona but am from the UK. My gf and me have been back in England for the last 2 weeks, for xmas and the new year.....and the cb wasn't packed.
So, during that time I've been getting xmas presents...the main ones being 4 orgasms in the space of the last 17 days, now that's probably not very many for the average guy but for me it's a lot! However, it's not all been fun and games, take yesterday morning and evening for example..
So, we woke up and my gf was telling me about how she had an erotic dream after which she told me she wanted me to make her cum orally. Of course I did as I was told.
Gf: Now I want you inside me..
You can imagine I was very happy to hear this, thinking orgasm number 5 was on it's way, ho ho ho merry xmas and all!! However after about 30 seconds..
Gf: The bed is making noise, I think someone downstairs might hear us.
Me: No, don't worry I'm sure they can't.
Another 30 seconds...
Gf: No, I think they can. Stop.
I stopped and she pulled away from me. I didn't need to even speak, I knew where this was heading, she saw the expression on my face and responded.
Gf: It's ok, I've already cum.....and you don't get to.
She said it so matter of fact, of course it made me want her even more but that was that and we got dressed.
Later on in the evening we got into bed, we were hugging and all of a sudden she reached down and started slapping my cock, I was a little shocked and had to listen carefully as she whispered in Spanish..
Gf: Te voy a castigar....te voy a castigar....
She was repeating 'I'm going to punish you' over and over as she slapped it. Well, within seconds I was hard and more than intrigued.
Me: What do you mean by punish?
She leant down as if she was actually talking to my cock instead of me.
Gf: I'm going to punish you, at the moment you're on holiday but when we get back home tomorrow I'm going to lock you away again....so enjoy your freedom..
I was speechless and extremely turned on as she kept slapping it.
Gf: Would you like me to suck your.....
Just hearing these words made me think how perfect it would be for her to let me cum from a blowjob, that was all I was thinking at that moment, all that I wanted.
Gf:...nipple.
She didn't even laugh, it was as though I should be grateful for the little pleasure she would give me.
Of course I said yes and after she obliged I was absolutely desperate to cum, this never happened of course, instead we went to sleep.
Well, the snow in London has kept us trapped here today and there's no way we're going back to Barcelona anytime soon so I'm not gonna be locked away just yet. I'm thinking I'm going to beg for more orgasms tonight.
It's an interesting time now. Sometimes I'm locked away for days with no release, then I'm let out for days at a time....but not necessarily with any release...I'm completely under her control....I don't even think about the possibility of masturbation to make myself cum anymore, the 'No making myself cum' rule has been enforced for so long now that it doesn't even seem like an option.....masturbation has been replaced by a blissful torment...happy days.
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We finally made it back to Barcelona yesterday (oh I'm back in the CB still with no release now). Now the first thing you'll notice is that the weather in Barcelona is nowhere near as cold as the uk, and there's certainly no snow here. However, the second thing is that although it's a mild 12 degrees outside, due to the serious lack of heating in Spain its only 12 degrees inside too. Now, bearing that in mind after a nice central heated house in England it was somewhat difficult trying to get into a freezing cold bed. Hopefully that sets the scene for what followed..
I was in bed, boxers and a t-shirt. My gf was wearing just about everything she owns, even a jumper.
Me: This is crazy, I'm freezing.
Now what happened next was a surprise, my gf opened her underwear draw and passed me something.
Gf: Put these on, they'll really help with the cold.
She had passed me a black pair of her tights!
At first I laughed, how many teases had told me to put tights on, and now here was my gf telling me....although not in a sexual way, I really think she sincerely wanted to help me.
Of course I put them on :) it really was a case of kill two birds with one stone, instantly heated and horny lol
Immediately my gf started laughing, and not just a little, she was literally rolling around laughing...and of course I was loving the humiliation
Gf: Get out of bed and let me see you properly.
I obliged no longer even thinking of the cold.
She made me stand up, turn around and commented on how they were see-through as her eyes started watering from laughing so much. I was kinda laughing too.
Me: These are really comfortable!
That really set her off laughing even more.
Gf: Be careful not to ladder them, they're new.
More laughing
Me: Seriously I think I'm gonna wear these each night, they really help with the cold.
Ok a little lame, it was true but maybe there was a hidden motive too.
Gf: You'll have to buy yourself some, you're not wearing mine every night!
I'm going to get some tomorrow....my gf has told me the shop I need to go to in the morning...
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Well it's now a week with no release and am still locked away in the rondo cb.
Every night in bed before we go to sleep (and some mornings) my gf has been rubbing or slapping my cock until it's hard, then runs her hands up and down it, grabbing my balls and verbally teasing me. She always finishes by giving my balls one hard slap and then it's lights out...no stroking, certainly no edging and orgasms....haha, can someone let me know what they are again? The only ones I get now are from handjobs, and sometimes even they are ruined...when I reach the point of cumming she slows right down so that I bearly enjoy it..as for sex, the last time 'I' came from sex was back in November..
Oh, I bought the tights :) Each night I'm now wearing them to bed and each night my gf laughs like crazy....this is seriously not helping me get to sleep!
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Things are still continuing much the same. Sometimes locked away, sometimes let out but very rarely allowed to cum. This month I've been allowed to cum 4 times, I think that's pretty good considering....however, things are taking a more serious twist now.
My gf seems to really be starting to realise I'll do anything to cum, so she's making me work a lot harder than before, and her teasing is getting much harder to handle...of course I'm not complaining one bit :)
So, a new rule that's been introduced on top of never masturbating and cumming EVER........I'm now not allowed to ask for any kind of sex, release or pleasure. After being teased and really begging, here's what she said:
Gf: What are you doing asking for release? It's my decision when you feel pleasure. From now on you're never to ask me for anything like that, you will get pleasure only if and when I decide, and nothing more.
She then stroked my cock until I edged, stopped, laughed and told me to go to sleep.
A tiny sentence like that has completely changed the dynamic of my chastity....it's now perfect, no topping from the bottom at all. She's completely in control and doing a damn fine job of it.
On top of that, things will be getting tougher for me soon. I'll be moving to England at the end of next month, and my gf will stay in Spain for 3 months before coming to join me.
Gf: What's the longest you could safely wear your CB?
Me: Well the one with openings I think I could wear longer term, maybe taking it off once a week to clean. I think it would be ok to wear overnight (at the moment she makes me sleep with no cb).
Gf: That's good then, when you're in England you're going to keep it on all the time.
I liked where this was heading...
Me: I could use those plastic locks, that way you can check the number when we chat on webcam to see that it's not been removed.
Gf: Exactly....and I can tease you while I play with myself on the cam....and you're locked away.
I didn't know what to say, just the thought really excited me
Me: So, I'll be locked away in England for 2 weeks at a time until we visit each other with absolutely NO physical teasing??
Gf: That's right, it's going to be interesting to see how desperate you are when we meet at the airport.
So, during 3 months the most I'm going to be cumming is 6 times....and that's if she doesn't come over, tease me with no release, put the cb back on me and leave for another 2 weeks...what have I gotten myself into lol...
You know, right at the beginning my gf said to me 'you don't know what you're getting yourself into honey'....I think I'm starting to see now, we play this 'game' on her terms now, how and when she wants to and so far it's exceeded all expectations :)
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Last night was fun, I was in the bedroom on one pc, and my gf was in the front room on her laptop. We got talking on messenger and before I knew it we were on the subject of t&d.
Gf: You're going to have to win me over, like when we started going out.
Me: Like a nice romantic dinner?
Gf: You'll see.
Me: Flowers and massages maybe?
Gf: It's getting late, what shall we have for dinner?
Me: I dunno, what are you going to make?
Ok, so I said it kinda joking, but she came running into the room. She slapped me lightly on the balls laughing.
Gf: You're getting way too cheeky.
She opened the draw and took out the CB
Gf: Put it on.
I did.
Gf: Dinner.
I went to the kitchen :)
Later that night we were sat on the sofa watching house (great series). Now, maybe there was too much onion in the dinner but I really had to let one go, and being a stereotypical guy I farted....and I'll admit I was almost proud of the noise (sorry ladies, us guys can be disgusting I know).
Gf: You are unbelievable, in the morning, in the evening....you don't stop.
I was sat there smiling as if I'd actually achieved something..
Gf: I'll tell you what, every time you fart and make a noise like that is another day you're not going to cum.
This was a surprise! I sat there for a few seconds contemplating this new idea. I mean, the idea's great but this could mean I never cum again lol, of course it could also mean that I learn to control myself a little better and I'm thinking it's gonna be the second option eventually.
That was last night on the sofa. So far I'm not gonna be cumming until at least Sunday.....I don't think I'll put onion in the dinner again...
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So, it's been 8 days since my last orgasm. I'd been told I wouldn't be cumming until at least Sunday, so today I was thinking maybe I'll be in with a chance even though I'm still locked away.
20 minutes ago my girlfriend got home from work and from the way I immediately started massaging her back...
Gf: It looks like someone's feeling a little horny?
She smiled.
Me: I'd describe it more as completely desperate.
She laughed.
Gf: You poor thing.
Me: But maybe today you'll give me release..
It was a desperate plea. She looked at me completely bewildered.
Gf: Why would you think that?
Me: Because you said nothing at least til Sunday.
Gf: That was before you did another 4 farts..
Oh no...I really thought the novelty had worn off of the game and she wasn't taking note anymore.
Me: I didn't realise you were still counting.
Gf: That's why I said 'what a shame' when we we watching the tv on Saturday. You've got at least 4 more days before I'll even think about letting you cum
I was really desperate, and I told her.
She laughed even more.
Gf: You poor thing.
Me: My god, the more you laugh, the more excited I get....
She really was laughing a lot now.
She grabbed my balls and started kissing me. They were hurting as I was desperately trying to get hard in the cb.
Gf: Don't get too excited, it's not coming off. I've got classwork to do.
'Oh noooooo' are the exact words I thought, but I can't convey the sense of complete and utter helplessness I felt lol.
Me: You really should charge for this, you're so good at it.
Gf: The funny thing is that it's so easy to do, I guess being a little 'bad' makes it easy for me to enjoy it.
And that was that, she's doing her classwork now (which I've learnt is time for me to stop asking and suffer in silence). I'm sat here thinking the expression 'be careful what you ask for....' applies to me at this moment in time...
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Well, the situation is definitely getting very difficult now. Normally when I reach a certain level of desperation my gf takes pity on me, or gives me a little surprise but this time she's really making me suffer.
So before bed last night as usual I was looking forward to getting my cb removed because that meant that if she was in the mood I'd get teased....and as luck would have it she was.
I was already hard just by looking at her get undressed and as she grabbed my cock she laughed.
Gf: Someone's excited, what's the matter, are you still desperate to cum?
She laughed again, she sure seems to have fun watching me suffer.
She started stroking it out side of my boxers. After about 30 seconds the begging began :)
Me: Please let me cum tonight...
Gf: No.
More begging followed, with offerings to do just about anything for her. (I'm not allowed to ask for teasing, stroking etc as in I can't annoy her by keep asking, but while she's doing things it makes her laugh, well sometimes....yesterday she just flat stopped because I asked to cum....you know maybe I should just never ask ever...
Gf: Don't you realise that no matter how much you beg me my answer won't change.
With that she stopped touching me. I lay there in silence racking my brains, maybe something I could do for her....after a minute I realised just how pointless it was, I wasn't going to cum no matter what.
We carried on talking for about 10 minutes, just general chat and then she reached down again. I'd learnt my lesson and didn't say a word except for whimpers of pleasure.....and all she was doing was running her fingers up and down my cock...it felt amazing.
Gf: To make you cum which would you prefer, my hand or my mouth?
Oh sweet lord, there is a god, I really had to think about this. The hands felt amazing, and I didn't want it to stop but just the thought of her using her mouth really excited me. I actually couldn't decide as she continued stroking and must have thought for about ages.....eventually...
Me: Mouth
She leant over and moved her head down......and then came back up and kissed me on the cheek.
Gf: Good night.
So, what words can I use, I honestly thought I was going to cum.....I'd been pushed past my limits, so desperate and again mercilessly denied. On top of that yesterday was only Monday, I've got until at least Thursday to go.
Gf: You know I think the day you actually get to cum you're really going to explode.
We hugged and I turned the light out. As I lay there wondering how long it would take to get to sleep the icing on the cake arrived....
The couple downstairs started having sex, and let me tell you they are certainly not quiet. All I could do was lay there listening.
Gf: Does it turn you on hearing them?
This time I laughed.
Me: No, you've already taken care of that.
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Still no release, and very little physical teasing. It's been 10 days but it feels a lot longer...
Last night getting into bed I was excited, even though I knew I wouldn't be getting much.
So, apparently the 'no fart' rule is still in effect..
Gf: Three more today, I'm starting to think you don't want to cum before you go to England.
I think the level of desperation in my voice convinced her that I wasn't doing this on purpose....she actually looked at me with a sympathetic face.
Me: Are you letting me off?
Ana: I'm playing my game and having fun with my plan..
Me: What's your plan?
Ana: You don't need to know.
She started running her fingers up and down my cock, outside of my boxers. I was already hard and this was just plain torture for me. I was thinking I'm denied until at least tomorrow, but she keeps me guessing so much that I'm not sure now.
We started kissing and after the conversation turned to 'normal' talk.
After about 10 minutes though things looked up considerably!
Gf: Do we have any condoms?
Me: Yes..
I couldn't believe it, we were actually gonna have sex and there was a good chance I'd be cumming!
Gf: Do we have the extra fine ones that let you feel more?
Me: Yes. Shall I get them?
Gf: No, I was just curious..
To say that her comment burst my bubble is an understatement.....once again in my desperation I'd assumed (wrongly) that I was getting some release...
Gf: Turn the light out.
I did.
Me: I was just thinking, that tomorrow your friend is here for 2 nights so I doubt I'll be getting anything tomorrow or Friday either.
My gf made a kinda mmmmmm noise in agreement.
Gf: Maybe I'll make you fuck me really slowly without making any noise.
At this point it hit me once again that I have no control over my situation and will be left like this as long as my gf sees fit, even if it gets too much for me to handle :)
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My gf's friend arrived Wednesday night which meant no teasing for me at all apart from my gf laughing at how desperate I was to receive something.
However yesterday things started looking up as her friend said she was flying back home that day...and I immediately started thinking that there's a good chance I'll be getting some release tonight. I don't know why, I just had a feeling and my gf seemed to be hinting a lot too.
So the evening came and we were sat on the sofa watching the new series of lost (in which I have no idea what's going on anymore) when my gf looked at me and smiled very seductively. I knew this meant I was in with a good chance of cumming tonight, but I've learnt a little these last few days..
Me: What were you just thinking?
Gf: Nothing.
And she smiled again.
So, the episode finished, my gf unlocked my cb and I got into bed. Now, as she was going to the bathroom she gave me a look that could only say 'we're gonna have sex'. When she came back she slowly got undressed looking at me in exactly the same way. She was naked and got into bed. I was unbelievably excited.
Gf: You know what I was thinking while we watched lost?
Me: No..
Gf: That when we get into bed I'm gonna get you hard, put a condom on your cock and make you fuck me until you cum....
I was hard and extremely turned on...
Gf: but...
'NOOOOOOO' was exactly what I was thinking, a mixture of desperation and more excitement at the same time.
Gf: I think after so many days of denial it would be better to spend some time doing more things to you, like teasing you, making you edge, maybe tying you up, stuff like that.
On my rollercoaster of emotions I was now on another high, this sounded even better. I couldn't believe what an amazing gf I have.
Gf: The only thing is I'm a little tired now.....
I knew what was coming....
Gf: So you'll have to wait for another day.
She smiled, a knowing smile that told me she found all this enjoyable yet effortless.
Gf: I honestly was gonna let you cum, but I think you'd prefer that to quick sex.
It took a few seconds to sink in....no cumming, not today.
Me: I don't suppose you'd like to share when that day will be??
It came out without thinking and I laughed nervously.
Gf: No...no questions.
She smiled.
I was sooooo desperate.
Me: No questions about anything? Even just a little teasing tonight?.
Gf: No. No more questions...ever. I'll never say yes so it's pointless asking. Remember you only get pleasure when I decide.
Me: Ok, sorry.
Gf: I'm going to think about more questions I can ask you though, like 'will you stroke my back and turn the light out?'
She grabbed my cock, squeezed it once and rolled over.
I started stroking her back for her.
I laid there thinking how much I appreciate her, how desperate I was to cum, how I wouldn't ask anymore questions, how I never wanted this teasing to end and how much I wanted it to end right now by cumming lol....all these thoughts at the same time....with such a desperation to cum that was not going to go away as I ran my fingers over her body.
Then...completely by surprise she grabbed my cock and started running her fingers up and down it. It felt amazing. It was teasing me like crazy and I started moving my hips slightly back and forward.
Gf: Hey, who said you could move?
She laughed..squeezed my balls once..and stopped. Then rolled over again to sleep.
Me: Oh my god.
Gf: What's the matter?
She said it in such an innocent yet evily sympathetic voice.
Gf: Buenas noches.
So, that was that. Today is 12 days, I don't know when I'll get release. An educated guess before would have been this weekend as it's when we'll have plenty of time for her to tease me etc.....but now I'm thinking maybe not, I'm thinking that if she's enjoying seeing me suffer, getting massages everyday, having all the housework done by me and cumming whenever she wants why would she stop it all by letting me cum...oh dear god :)
by Chewit
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